I generally tend to think I’m pretty badass. I mean…I birthed a child, what can’t I do?!
But when it comes to exercise and fitness I tend to count myself out before I even start…terrible, I know. I haven’t prioritized my health and wellness and as a result I can’t fit 90% of the clothes I own. I feel heavy, and have become quite insecure. I’ll workout for a day and look down at my stomach expecting to see some chiseled abs after 35 minutes of exercise. I haven’t got time to wait….ain’t nobody got time for that!
I recently had to ask myself, how badly I wanted to change my life. How badly I wanted to prioritize my health and wellness and how hard I was willing to fight for it. First, I signed up to run in the Tufts Health Plan 10K for Women in October, it’ll be my first race and I’m really nervous but I paid for it so I’m running it! And next I needed to commit to a workout routine that would motivate me and help me change my body. I’d been doing TurboJam on and off for a few months, was considering purchasing TurboFire, but then an all women’s Crossfit opened near me.
My inner badass immediately thought, Crossfit? No problem, sign me up! I stopped by Monday morning and met with the awesome owner Liz Mellen who psyched me up and got me all excited, and by Monday afternoon I’d signed up for a month of unlimited workouts. I’ll go every day this month!! I thought! Man oh man I didn’t know what I’d gotten myself into.
Tuesday afternoon I was ready – Day One of Crossfit – I got this! I was the only student in the class at the time so I had the owner Liz and another trainer all to myself. Halfway through the warmup I was panting. I thought, oh shit WTF did I get myself into. The WOD (workout of the day) was 3 rounds of: 200m run, air squats, and lunges. I tried not to let my inner badass run away, so I smiled and said sure no problem, when inside I was freaked. I was crazy slow, cursing while on the run, wondering who puts themselves through such torture. By the time I came in for the last set of air squats and lunges both coaches were cheering me on as I slowly finished up. I walked in a daze home, drenched in sweat, happy I burned 800+ calories, but worried about future classes.
Day One Highlight: Crossfit T-Shirt for showing up & not giving up.
Wednesday I woke up stiff as a board. My whole body hurt. It hurt to walk and bend my knees. My cousin, another Crossfitter, told me to fight through the pain and go to class even though I was hurting. So I went to class, unprepared for the ass whooping about to happen. There were two other girls there and Liz and Alexis Picheny, another trainer, were teaching the class. Once again I was sweating by the end of the warmup – and out of breath. The WOD included 18 minutes of rounds of jumping jacks, burpees, and ab situps. BURPEES? They are about the worst exercise ever. I had to modify them because of my knee. The other two girls were on fire, whipping through it, and then there was me. I felt like a slug, everything hurt, and I was out of breath, and the burpees killed me. But lovely Alexis stayed close by and encouraged me to push through it. I was dripped in sweat at the end…and had to go back to work. I was so pissed that it was so hard for me to get through the workout that I cried. Yup, I cried when we were done and sat talking with Alexis who was amazing and so supportive.
Day Two Highlight: I cried.
Yesterday and today I have been in such pain from back to back workouts – I was clearly too ambitious. I’m also doubting if Crossfit was the right workout for me to get into since I haven’t been working out recently. I’ve paid for my month and will stick it out at least that long. The cost after that more than doubles which plays a huge role. I thought I was so ready to see my body change that I would do anything. But shit Crossfit is crazy intense, and my inner badass needed to sit down!! One thing is for sure – Crossfit yields results. In two workouts I burned over 1600 calories – that’s CRAZY! And based on how my body’s feeling and how on fire my abs are I know that if I were to continue there is no way my body would stay the same.
Week One of Crossfit done. Recovering this weekend so I can mentally prepare for Week Two. GULP!