A Life full of Plan B’s
Plan A: Graduate from College #1
Plan B: Graduate from College #3
Plan A: Keep my job throughout my pregnancy
Plan B: Fired not even 1/2 way through my pregnancy
Plan A: Sexy sleek black small SUV…fully loaded
Plan B: 1996Toyota Camry
Plan A: First apartment = Complete Awesomeness
Plan B: First apartment=1 bedroom hole in the wall
Plan A: SuperMom
Plan B: Often annoyed aggravated- due- to –lack- of- sleep Mom
Plan A: Together Forever with my daughter’s father
Plan B: Try to have a mature understanding for the sake of our daughter
Plan A: Single life, no kids, gorgeous loft apartment, fly car, hott bod
Plan B: Kid at 19, ok apartment, crappy car, and not so hott bod
Plan A: Perfect Family = Mom, Dad, Kids
Plan B: Family = Mom + Daughter
My life has been all about Plan Bs. I’ve always had an idea of how I wanted to do things and where I wanted my life to go. Then BAM! Life instantly changes, and all I can do to try to find my balance with the new changes. And as soon as I get some
stability and create new visions for my future BAM, this roller coaster of a life heads down around and to the side and I once again have to find my ground. Funny how life has a way of constantly changing. And yet, change is one of the things I fear.
What I have yet to fully understand, is that these Plan Bs are not Plan Bs…they are what was meant to be for my life. All that has happened, all the pain I have gone through, all the bs I had to deal with, all the people I have met along the way…it’s all happened for a reason and has brought me to the place I am today. If I never would have given my daughter’s father my number, I would never been able to meet my beautiful beautiful daughter.
So I’ll still create visions for my futures, but recognize that what will be, will be.
And all I can do is prepare myself for the journey.