I’m ready for this to be over!! I have no pregnancy glow – it’s sweat. I’m sweating. All. The. Time.
It’s hard for me to fully believe I’m pregnant again. My daughter turned 11 in September and is in full tween mode. It’s hard to keep up with a growing and active kiddo, and I love it. But, geez pregnancy is exhausting!
With 24 weeks behind me and ~15 weeks left until we meet our baby I am counting down the days, hours and minutes until I get to hold him/her. We’ve surprised many friends and family by choosing not to find out the gender of the baby. With my daughter I HAD to know, but she made that pretty difficult by constantly crossing her legs. The ultrasound tech said maybe it’s a girl, but they couldn’t be sure. As much as I was seeking their confirmation, I knew I was going to have a daughter and as soon as she made her entrance into the world I screamed is it a girl?! And she sure was. I don’t feel that same urge this time around. I would love another daughter and my boyfriend (this is his first child) would love a son. He says there is too much estrogen at home with me and my daughter, lol. But I remind him that he has Logan (the dog), though he doesn’t quite think it’s the same!
I remember feeling so panicked during my pregnancy with my daughter. The unknown can be so scary. I bought way too much that the baby didn’t need and didn’t focus on the changes I would experience mentally, physically or emotionally during and after pregnancy. While the same worries are on the table this time around – maternity leave, finances, name – they don’t feel as imminent this time around. I’m sure being sick has played a role, but I’m trying to be more calm with this pregnancy.
Baby is finally kicking strong enough for other people other than me to feel him/her. Last night before bed, baby was particularly active and both my daughter and boyfriend were able to feel baby’s quick movements. My daughter, stunned and excited, stood there and started crying. It was so so sweet and made the idea of her being a big sister that much more real. She hasn’t stopped talking about her ideas for the baby shower. She is going to be such a wonderful big sister.
I know the next few months are going to fly by and we’ll be a family of five (dog included) sooner than we think. It’s exciting but also kind of scary to think of having two kids, especially with such a big gap in age. But, all I can do is take everything one day at a time and cherish these moments.
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