Archive for February, 2011

Where is the love, the love, the love?

I’ve read so many anti-valentines updates today, and they’ve all rubbed me the wrong way. I’ve spent the past 2 Valentine’s Day with my significant other, but this year I’m single. And before today I was feeling really bummed about it. I mean, you can’t escape the reds and pinks and flowers and cards and candy. I was like, come ON already!! I was entirely salted that I was spending this Valentine’s Day without a boo by my side to enjoy this hallmark holiday with. And when I woke up I was all my all black everything status. No happiness here, just gloominess. Then I had a change of heart. I told myself my emotions determine the mood. This can either be a good day or I can spend the whole day miserable. So I put my black dress back, and instead chose a cream one topped off with a light pink scarf. And I decided that today was going to be a good day. Who friggen cares that I don’t have a boo today. I’m not going to curse all the couples I see. Love is a beautiful beautiful thing. And if people are lucky enough to find it than that’s glorious. We need to stop the hate, and appreciate!! We should all remember the wonderful people in our lives that we love and that mean something to us. This is a day not only for lovers, but this is a day for love in general. 

my daughter this am
I am so so blessed to have a awesome 5 year old to call my daughter and I love her to pieces. She is my valentine today and always. I turned my frown around when I saw her hair standing up in bed as she perked up and said mommy, its party day at school! She lights up my life, and makes me truly appreciate my ability to love and be loved.
And know what else I love about this hallmark holiday? Super awesome valentine chocolate will be discounted tomorrow! Hollller!!


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This Isn’t Just For Colored Girls…

When I saw the previews for For Colored Girls I knew it was a movie I had to see. So along with 2 girlfriends we went to see the movie on opening night. It was great to see the packed theatre and all the support for the film and amazing cast. I started crying about 20minutes into the movie. And by the end my eyes were red and puffy. Its like I was hit by a train. The movie didn’t just move it. It dragged me. It swung me. It threw me down in the dirt, and make me take a look at myself. At those around me. At the secrets that I am carrying around, and I wrote this shortly after seeing the film”

Do our secrets define us? 

Shape us, make us. Break us?
We all have secrets.
Let them unite us
Not tear us apart
Let us be able to release ourselves
from our secrets
and allow ourselves
to be
loved
to be
supported
to be
cared for.
Let us not store our secrets away
Let us not fear our secrets
Let us find healing
and
peace
Let us drop the baggage
and begin a new journey
Let us believe in the power
of a
community
of a
sisterhood

Because this..
Is For Colored Girls
Who Have Considered 
Suicide 
When the Rainbow 
Wasn’t Enough

There is no way to describe the power of this movie. The messages are available to those who want to listen. This movie isn’t just For Colored Girls. It’s for all of us, all of us who have struggled, who have scarified, who have made mistakes, who’ve been beaten down by life, who have been silenced, who have had sex without love, who have ever loved and lost, and those whom are seeking comfort and affection.


The movie is available today on DVD. Though I have no plans on watching it soon, because it put me in a dark emotional stage, its a movie that I have to have in my movie collection. After watching the film, I went out and bought the book, and am excited to read the poems within it.



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Mamavation Monday

Last Weeks Goals:

-Walk 15 miles
-Continue Shred
-Turbo Jam 2x this week
-Add brown rice/whole grain pasta

-STRETCH after every workout!

Mon: 4.21mi -Shred
Tues: 4.08mi
Wed: 0mi – Turbo Jam
Thurs: 5.28mi
Fri: 4.36mi – Shred
Sat: 0mi
Sun: 1.91mi



Total Miles = 19.84miles

Jan 17th                     Feb 7th
Weight: 168.4             Weight: 167.4
Chest: 39                    Chest: 38
Waist: 39                    Waist: 39

Hips: 42                      Hips: 40








If you recall, last week I lost 1lb and I wasn’t that excited about it, but happy to see the scale decrease. Well this week I gained back the 1 lb, which is frustrating. I’m honestly running out of workout/fitness steam, and not sure what it will take to get back on track.

I don’t handle stress well, and I’m stretched so thin raising my daughter, working, Senior year in College, volunteering, blogging, dealing with absent parent, and trying to figure out life after school. When I stress, I don’t think yah I should work out. I think, I need to go lay down. 



It is encouraging to see that my measurements have gone down a tad, minus that damn stubborn waist. Ugh.

I’ve been wanting to lose 2lbs a week since like forever, so this week, I will continue the walking and do a workout DVD everynight…which will most likely mean I’ll be headed to bed an hour later everynight. Which will mean a crankier mommy. There honestly doesn’t seem like there is any damn balance!

This week’s goals:
-Lose 1-2lbs
-Walk 15 miles
-Workout DVD everyday!!

-Increase water intake

BLOGGING CARNIVAL: This week’s blogging carnival is sponsored by Chef’s Requested.
Question: What are you doing to keep your heart healthy? I have honestly never considered making sure my heart was healthy, and don’t know how to ensure that my heart is staying healthy.


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