Archives for February 2011
|my daughter this am|
Do our secrets define us?
We all have secrets.
Let them unite us
Not tear us apart
Let us be able to release ourselves
from our secrets
and allow ourselves
Let us not store our secrets away
Let us not fear our secrets
Let us find healing
Let us drop the baggage
and begin a new journey
Let us believe in the power
Is For Colored Girls
Who Have Considered
When the Rainbow
There is no way to describe the power of this movie. The messages are available to those who want to listen. This movie isn’t just For Colored Girls. It’s for all of us, all of us who have struggled, who have scarified, who have made mistakes, who’ve been beaten down by life, who have been silenced, who have had sex without love, who have ever loved and lost, and those whom are seeking comfort and affection.
The movie is available today on DVD. Though I have no plans on watching it soon, because it put me in a dark emotional stage, its a movie that I have to have in my movie collection. After watching the film, I went out and bought the book, and am excited to read the poems within it.
Last Weeks Goals:
-STRETCH after every workout!
Mon: 4.21mi -Shred
Wed: 0mi – Turbo Jam
Fri: 4.36mi – Shred
Total Miles = 19.84miles
Hips: 42 Hips: 40
If you recall, last week I lost 1lb and I wasn’t that excited about it, but happy to see the scale decrease. Well this week I gained back the 1 lb, which is frustrating. I’m honestly running out of workout/fitness steam, and not sure what it will take to get back on track.
I don’t handle stress well, and I’m stretched so thin raising my daughter, working, Senior year in College, volunteering, blogging, dealing with absent parent, and trying to figure out life after school. When I stress, I don’t think yah I should work out. I think, I need to go lay down.
It is encouraging to see that my measurements have gone down a tad, minus that damn stubborn waist. Ugh.
-Increase water intake
Apologize if all that I sound like is I’m complaining,
But life keeps on complicating, an’ I’m debating,
On leaving this world, this evening, even my girls,
Can see I’m grievin’, I try and hide it,
But I can’t, why do I act like I’m all high and mighty,
When inside, I’m dying, I am finally realizing I need help.
I can’t do it by myself, too weak, 2 weeks I’ve been having ups and downs,
Going through peaks and valleys, dilly dallying,
I’m hatin’ my reflection, I walk around the house tryin’ to fight mirrors,
I can’t stand what I look like, yeah, I look fat, but what do I care?
I give a fuck, only thing I fear, is Hailie,
I’m afraid if I close my eyes I might see her,
-“Going Through Changes” Eminem – Recovery