Archive for December, 2010

Dear 2010

2010 Motto: Just to get by
Dear 2010,

You have changed in me in so many ways.

I have decided to get off this roller coaster ride.
This was a tough year.
I cried too much. I doubted myself too much.
I was full of hurt, and anger, and aggression for most of my time with you.
I barked instead of talked. I chose to fight instead of love.
I alienated friends and family. 
I managed to basically ruin the best relationship I’ve ever had. 
I gave up on believing in my worth. I spent most of this year doubting my ability to be a capable parent and friend.
Another year down as a single mom, but why am I so sad? Am I enough? Can I continue to do this solo?
I still feel guilt for how my relationship ended with my coparent. Its my fault, its my fault, its my fault.
I felt like such a failure that we end the year as enemies rather than friendly coparents. Its my fault.
I learned that I am the decisive element.  
My wounds bled heavy this year, for all to see.
Depression, rage, and anxiety filled this year.
Unable to see the light at the end of the tunnel, I spent the majority of this year shielding myself from the world, from reality, from myself.
When things started becoming to real…I ran. Fast.
But why?
What I am afraid of? Isn’t this supposed to be what dreams are made of?
2010, I wasted entirely too much time being bitter and angry over situations and people I cannot change, no matter how hard I tried.
2010…I’m glad to see you go.
I’m getting off the roller coaster and ready for 2011.


Play Your Way-Personal Fitness Twitter Party with GameStop

Join the community at Mamavation for a special Twitter party Wednesday, January 5th from 8-10pm EST with Gamestop. Also enter for your chance to win the following:
1. GRAND PRIZE: Wii Bundle in black, white or red. The bundle comes with:
·         Black Wii System
·         Wii MotionPlus Remote
·         Wii Nunchuk Controller Black
·         Wii Sports
·         Wii Sports Resort
2. Biggest Loser Challenge
3. Biggest Loser Ultimate
4. EA Sports Active 2.0
5. Jillian Michaels FItness Ultimatum 2011 (2 winners)
6. Kinect Sports
7. Sony Move SPorts Champions Bundle
8. Your Shape Fitness Evolved
9. Wii Sports Resort
I’m gunning for the Wii! I’ve wanted one for forever to help me exercise, but haven’t been able to afford it! I hope I win, I hope I win!
See you there!!! 


Resurrection of May Book Review

I’m a bit obsessed with books! I love buying and reading books. My bookcase is overflowing with my favorite books and books I still need to read. I find such pleasure and contentment within books. I was fortunate to review the book The Resurrection of May by Lisa Samson. I’ve never read a book like this before in my life. My usual interest is in self love books and fiction about characters struggling to gain a sense of self and make sense of the world we live in. Well I guess this book is kind of like the later, but with a whole lot of heavy issues mixed in.
The Resurrection of May focuses around two main characters: May and Claudius. An odd pair, May is a youthful College student and Claudius an elderly man who lives with his dog on a farm outside of town. Their friendship is unexpected, but turns out to be the best thing to happen to each of them. May goes on a mission trip to Africa and comes back a different person. May encounters a kind of pain and suffering she had never felt before, and it is with Claudius she is able to begin healing. It is Claudius with whom May connects most with when she returns. Claudius’ patience and understanding appeals to May and their friendship blossoms as the years go by.
My Reaction:
Wow. I expected nothing that occurred in the book. It was a complete roller coaster to my emotions. In a good way. The writing is so vivid and enlightening, you feel the words on the page. You empathize with the characters. You feel the pain and hurt and sadness. At one point during the book, I sat on the floor and cried. That is how powerful and moving this book is. It was gripping, frightening, and hopeful. There were many times I was on the edge of my seat frantic about what would happen next for May and Claudius.
May is introduced as a typical College student, but what she encounters in Africa changes her completely, and the reader is able to go through the journey of emotions with her, and watch her resurrection and growth firsthand. You want nothing more than for May to succeed and I was rooting for her the entire book. 
I was definitely entertained while reading this book. It was hard to read though, as some parts were uncomfortable to read. But, I definitely felt that it helped me take a step back and look at my life and enjoy it more. 
I would recommend the Resurrection of May to anyone wanting a great complex dynamic novel to read.
Booksneeze has provided me with a complimentary copy of this book or advanced reading copy.